I think of him as a miracle. I was never told that I couldn't have kids or that there was anything wrong that would cause me to be infertile, it was just something I had felt for most of my life. I wanted kids. I love kids. I taught Preschool for 10 years and loved them. Just something inside me made me feel that I would never be able to have any of my own. I got the opportunity to take a job working from home making twice the money I was while teaching, so I jumped on it. It was third shift, but the money was worth it. Approximately two months after starting my new job, I found out that I was pregnant. I was shocked, overjoyed, ecstatic....humbled.
On my first trip to my OBGYN, I was given an ultrasound and found that I was 6 weeks along and that I had developed a cyst on my left ovary. They told me that it should burst by the time I was 12 weeks along, but it didn't. After Cooper was born, it was not only still there, but it had grown. So, when Coop was 5 months old, I went to have it removed and in the process of removing it, they found that I had cysts all over my ovary as well. They had to remove my ovary that day. If it hadn't been for getting pregnant with Cooper, who knows how long I would have gone without knowing that I had this issue. So, for that, I am thankful.
However, that leaves me with one ovary and Chris and I would like to have more children. We have decided that if we try and are not able to get pregnant, then we will definitely adopt. I think we have decided that even if we are able to get pregnant, then we are going to adopt as well. We have a lot of love to give and if we can give to a child who needs it more than most, then that's what we are going to do.
But in the meantime, it's just Cooper and I plan to soak up all of his love and energy that I can. He is a sponge and soaks up everything that I give him, so I should do the same. He wants me to hold his hand at night as he falls asleep and I will hold his hand as long as he will let me. He wants our love and attention all the time and we will give it, even if later on he thinks he doesn't want it. He is so easy to love. I hope he thinks the same of me.
Until next post,
Love each other.
Wow Tiffany! Just goes to show that Cooper was meant to be! I have always felt something inside me telling me that I'll probably never have children. I'd like some. But given my propensity to not like them much, I doubt that I'll adopt if I can't have any of my own. My mom was the same way about children until she had her own so I have no doubt that I'd be a loving parent. I just don't feel much for other peoples' children. And frankly, most of the posts on FaceBook from people who are parents are usually talking about their kid is sick with this or that and there is nothing inside me that says: "Sign me up for that!" LOL Okay, there is a blog formulating in my head right now so I'll end it there! :)
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